I find it easy to minimize my feelings of sadness, hurt, and grief than to acknowledge them. Yet, I must acknowledge those feelings if I want to heal. Everyday I want to flee from my feelings. I want to flee the hard work of healing. I want to flee the needed time it takes to process my hurts. Unfortunately, healing only comes through work. Work is that combination of time and effect. Healing takes time and effort. If I want to heal I must do the work.
Yesterday was work. Yesterday all of the parts of my life felt heavy. The weight of a future career. The weight of parenting. The weight of finances. The weight of my feelings. So I went to work. I made phone calls to friends and talked about my feelings. I took time to rest my body. I spend time in meditation and pray. I did the work and at the end of the day I was exhausted, but I felt at peace. I am grateful that not everyday feels as heavy as yesterday but I know those heavy days will come again.
If you are facing the same difficult feelings that I am feelings I encourage you to not flee those feelings. Instead embrace the feelings. Don’t minimize those feelings. I know it’s easy to minimize but in the long run your heart and your mind will thank you for dealing with your feelings.
May you find healing today. May you find your feelings today. May you enjoy the work.
Your blog is very encouraging, thank you.